Latr in Day One

Well I had one glass of wine after we climbed the fence to get inot my brother in laws house to have a swim with my sister in law who was so hung over. All the blow up toys all 15 of them were still there so the kids had a ball. I had hoped to see Steve but he had to write for a seminar tomorrow in Singapore so we then went to the river and all the kids did skurfing. My ex rang wanting to know if I really wanted to call it off and to pick up some stuff but I said Yes its over. It feels sad but I am sick of feeling sad. I tried to have a sleep but couldnt so went to the river to get the girls after buying a Lotto Ticket I am going to be rich one day enough to pay my mortgage off and buy a navy blue porsche carrera. I bought Steve a hat from Country Road adndropped that off. I may take him to the airport in the am. I was hopingto have dinner with him but he is still writing. Another friend wanted to have a drnk but I said no As we all know why. I went to the Gym and still weigh 79.5 that shits me as I was sure i was 75 not so long ago and i feel better now and slimmer than I did then . Oh well... I had better up the anti and be stonger

Day 1

Its the 2nd of January and the beginning of 60 Days which will end on March the 2nd.
I plan to loose ten kilos, drink no more than one glass of champagne a day as I realised it was ridiculous to quit completely as if I died tomorrow I would hate to think I didn't have that enjoyment of a glass of bubbles however I Will try.
I am also going to finish 2 paintings to enter into the Animal Archibald Prize and The Archibald Prize in Sydney. I am paitintg a dog and fr the real one I am painting Tahnee who won Australia's Top model last year as she is a friend of Tillys.
I also booking a flight to melb or Tasha s 28th birthday for the weekend as that is the 5th March and Steve has written in his diary and we both have goals to loose the weight. HE just rang and said Now be serious.. HE doesn't know I am blogging. but its a part of me having the discipline to do it so I will. I also am letting go of my ex who i have talked about earlier. He text this morning asking why I went off him and asking me one day to explain. I don't htink I need to. He should never have said "be happy with a overweight mother of two children".He should never have bought the presents he did when he was going to give me a day in a day spa or a trip to Bali something to pamper myself with as last year was such a bad year and he should never have rung me at 1130 at night saying he is coming to see me after not inviting me ot a Xmas party and then coming over here. I told him not to treat me as a hooker which is what it was. On New years he text at 11pm and I said if your serious about wanting to be with me and make amends get over here for midnight to clecbrate and start the new year afresh but that is not the same as coming over for a root but he doesn't get that. Anyway I am off to the gym am cutting down the fags and hers to day 1 of no texts to return to him and no drunk nights weeping into my pillow and to weight loss.....

New Years Day

Now I know 60 days was to start today but I have decided it is the start of the new year and I have a bottle of Vintage Moet that needs to be drunk I will have that today and start 60 days tomorrow.
I had a fun new years drank tattinger at a friends then went to my old boyfriend s whom I love but he dosent love me as I am too fat but he is too so we both joke about it but he has just bought a plane and if I am to fly in it I have to loose 10 kiols as its only a small plane so that is part of the deal too he does to and he has already los ten but needs to loose another 10-15 so we are doing it together even though he will be away for the next two months in singapore and then melbourne learning to fly. SO we drank buubles and I came home at 1145 and could find nothing to drink except cask wine left over by the teenagers so i toasted the New Year to myself with a Coolabah 4 litre cask of wine and dropped off to sleep only to wake wide eyed and not hung over at 6 am . Had c couple of SMS from the ex boyfriend asking to talk but i told him not to call me againm then I said am off for a walk near your house did he want to meet me but he didnt answer so I have to start 60 days tomorrow so the finishe date will be March 2nd which will be Steves birthday and if I do it I will treat myself to a trip to Melbourne......... to see Tasha for her birthday on March 5th Then I am off to the beach and get ready for my last day before the fight of the addictions begin...And tomorrow I will enrol in my course Greeks for travellers at uni summer school. Actually while i think of it when I went walking today I saw a real spunk and as he stretched i said Good boy limber up .... He thenran past me again when i was stretching and said good girl LIMber up.. Oh good start to the new year because I do look good sure a bit overwight but I am voluptuous with great tits and curves in all the right spaces.. I am so going to be thin this year after getting over these addictions..... Till tomorrow asas i have 8 hungover teenagers to feed breakfast too and i HAVE MADE EGG AND BACON PIES rock melon pineapple nectarines fresh juice and lots of water and then i will drop a pie into steve then head to beach... HAppy New Years day then i will come home and continue to paint.This is my year.

one day to go

I woke feeling pretty fresh only drank one bottles of bubbles. Went to the beach this am early and lauhed so much with two friends as one was trying to skulk out of spending new years tongith with her boyfriend as she has met someone else, the other was so hung over last to be seen feeding a guy asparagus whilst sitting on his lap and it wasnt her boyfriend who was stalking her at the beach at 615 am..... so laughter started our day. I then drove isable to the airport as she was off to the whitsundays and both her and her boyfriend didnt bother to clean their teeth or showere but sprayed impulse over there clothes in the car. If it had been tilly she would have had her hair done makeup on and smelling beauitful... SO then went to vidsit a friend on crutches then went to the gym to pound some weight off as he had said a comment about settling for an overweight mother of two teenagers rather than run off with a prositiute which his friend was about to do. ..... S$*7>, Anyway with earphones on and music blaring to I just havent found you yet...I sort of felt a bit sad but then I thought that this year tilly got into the australian under 18 water polo team and izzy got 93.65 which is a very high score in her tee so i have done ok as a single mum,,,,,, and then i felt better.as i have done it with vitually no help from my family money wise and i got 450 to go towards one of tillys trips apart from that I have done it on my own so no wonder i get a bit tired and cranky. Anyway I am on a mission to get to Kythira this year and i will be thin too .fCK HIS OVERWIEGHT MOTHER OF TWO COMMENT. SO TOMORROW ITS 60 DAYS WITHOUT EITHER....... HEAVENS TO BETSY

बेक तो डे ओने अगेन

Was going to write yesterday but was too depressed so after an hour at the beach I came home and went to bed with a bottle of champayne and a valium. My boyfriend had bought me three presents for xmas all of which i already head. He had said he would book me inot a day spa or a trip to bali but i goe neither so after saying thankyou but i have them he went off to JB hi Fi and came to my house with the super bloody woofer cd player that looks like it should be in a monara or a bogan superb. Its great sound but i have a minimalistic house and like sleek lines and i was tired of making any intimate efforst towards thim so i spacked it and said I cant be trated like this. I mean if your partner cant love you and adore you and priase you and think your fantastic rather then keep throwing your mistakes in your face then who wants an enemy so i tucked into bed as work hadnt called and i listened to my self esteem tape and read Justin Heralds book Just Do It and that put me to sleep . I have to find my own happiness so today I went for a walk along three beach and a early swim with my walking partner and then went to the gym and did a step wokout which nearly killed me, went to buy some paints to enter The Archibald Animal Portraitur prise. I was spurred on when I saw Robert Juniper was judging it as last year he gave me a HIghly recommended for my fabulous paininting of a sausage dog called CLOUD. So got two canvas and some more paints and gor a fab picute of a dog called cooper but nicknamed KILLER as he tried to scoff my coffeee on the way home from the beach this am and i am going to paint him and my cat SARAH. I then got word my parents might pop in this afternnon. I have seen them twice this year and they gave the three of us a 100 voucher for christmas so thats 33.33 dollars each to blow. I am a single parent with no extra help just for once you would think they might help out a bit.. But I gusess people dont change. They ghave made me a great mum thats all I know. Anyway I have poured a wine the boy has not contacteded me for 2 days since i text shoould we go for a walk and swim and he text back NO. Nothing more he ovbiously dosent wish to sort thiungs out. He also told me I should stick to plans and not keep changing them and he got huffy when I said Please pull over here x2 as I saw friends on the side of the road on xmAS day and he haffed and he puffed....... anyway I have poured a glass and am going to have a cat nap before facing the negative parents who will ask me why I am not working. They think I should work every day.. I am only dreaming of Kythira and painting and tonight Izzy gets her TEE results so am praying she gets into VET. She deserves too as she is bright and a good kid and I love her madly.... Tilly on the other hand is on the mend after spending xmas in Casualty with a temp of39.8 and has been at a friends so I am home on my own and I love it.. At step class I felt so miserable I wounder when a year is up of my last insurance policy i took out.................